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Just Like That
03:08
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..I’m pretty sure there’s not much left, so
Here it is, a selection of beat poems
A selection of songs, while I’m in the throng
Of thoughts and misnomers
Inscribed by the "tomers" [sic. writers]
Writing the histories, the victor decrees
What is remembered, likely not me
And just like that, ten years rolled on
What happened to the promise I bet on (deja deja)
And just like that, ten years rolled on
What happened to the promise I bet on (deja deja)
And just like that, ten years rolled by
Pretty disappointed, hoped I‘d die (deja deja)
And just like that, ten years rolled by (deja vu)
…
I won’t misrepresent
It wasn’t a lapse of judgment
But a full on fucko-boingo
Error rate max, synchronization lost
What it takes to get accosted, by
Ill thoughts possessed by demons
Waking up screaming
You goddamn, fuck
And just like that, ten years rolled on
What happened to the promise I bet on (deja deja)
And just like that, ten years rolled on
What happened to the promise I bet on (deja deja)
And just like that, ten years rolled by
Pretty disappointed, hoped I‘d die (deja deja)
And just like that, ten years rolled by (deja vu)
I can only talk in vague terms
A skeleton buried so deep
But not far enough into the ground
It still emerges when I try to sleep
I put it in the closet and threw the key away
It still tried to escape
In that room underneath those lights
With the oath that was caught on tape
Past transgressions come to haunt us
Past aggressions love to taunt us
Getting thrown underneath the bus
Left me just a big ol’ husk
Because I’ve been eaten away from the inside
I promise you I never lied
Well that would be affront to my mission
Well I guess I only lied by omission ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
And just like that, ten years rolled on
What happened to the promise I bet on (deja deja)
And just like that, ten years rolled on
What happened to the promise I bet on (deja deja)
And just like that, ten years rolled by
Pretty disappointed, hoped I‘d die (deja deja)
And just like that, ten years rolled by (deja vu)
And just like that, ten years drifted away
Fuck what happened on that awful day (deja deja)
And just like that, ten years drifted away
Fuck what led up to that awful day (deja deja)
And just like that, ten years rolled by
Pretty disappointed, hoped I‘d die (deja deja)
And just like that, ten years rolled by (deja vu)
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Smile
03:44
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3. |
Queen In Green
03:26
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In my youth, in the deepest recesses of my mind,
before existential fears and other maladies.
I would find myself traipsing tight wooded corridors
following a whispered promise of those melodies.
Pushing past the creatures who were restlessly focused on
blotting out your song
I could play it on the gift you gave me when I ran away
on that very fateful promised day
I searched the four corners of this kingdom so many times but I never let myself forget you
I kept you in the back of my mind always because isn't that what childhood friends do?
And when I saw you once again it was bittersweet but knowing you would forever have my back
Was inherently comforting, and this fact was what kept me determined and on the right track
I could never forget you even if I wanted to
And now I've battled evil and found myself restored to before
I'd like to get to know you once more
If that's ok, I'd like to know whether
Despite our differences we can still be together
And now I've battled evil and found myself restored to before
I'd like to get to know you once more
If that's ok, I'd like to know whether
Despite our differences we can still be together
Despite our differences can we still be together?
Despite our differences can we still be together?
My queen in green, in another world and time
With an expression so entirely sublime
In my teens I had dreams, now I fall apart at the seams
Life without her wakes me up with screams
So friendly, she reached out when I was all alone
She made me feel welcome, but I left her when I got the stone
Want a chance to atone.
I've had the odds stacked up
I've fought demons and dragons
I've milked cattle
dragged boxes and battled.
I've had my nightmares manifest in paint
Caught ghosts in a jar claimed magic from a star.
Horticulture with explosive results
Put up with jives and jabs and other hurled insults
I've slit the throats of wolves and even raced with the dead.
But all I can ever think of when I'm laying in bed?
I'm so afraid of what you might say after all I've been through, that talking to you is the scariest thing I could do.
And now I've battled evil and found myself restored to before
I'd like to get to know you once more
If that's ok, I'd like to know whether
Despite our differences we can still be together
And now I've battled evil and found myself restored to before
I'd like to get to know you once more
If that's ok, I'd like to know whether
Despite our differences we can still be together
Despite our differences can we still be together?
Despite our differences can we still be together?
Forest sage and medallion carrier
Forest sage and medallion carrier
Forest sage and medallion carrier
I fell in love with a fictional character
Forest sage and medallion carrier
Forest sage and medallion carrier
Forest sage and medallion carrier
I fell in love with a fictional character
Forest sage and medallion carrier
Forest sage and medallion carrier
Forest sage and medallion carrier
I fell in love with a fictional character
Forest sage and medallion carrier
Forest sage and medallion carrier
Forest sage and medallion carrier
I fell in love with a fictional character
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4. |
Depression
07:15
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I’ve had a song stuck in my head for a dozen years reeling I’d be better off dead
Lyrics pondered, wondered, tied forever into my brain matter
Could be hybridized or simply lies but it left me paralyzed
My mind is like a volatile bundle of forgotten times
Forget people names and places but remembering some stupid rhymes
From better times, I draw a new line right here at this moment
Promise myself it will change but I’m still focused on this mission
Pissing resources away but not towards a better box but instead toward this equinox
It’s the depression
Hoping my life might feel shorter after I crack this mystery
Questing hard for what I’ve lost that’s forgotten by history
I know this story is dumb and something that is never won
But a few leads, so what, how will I feel if it is done
So I sit in the 3am silence while the ringing in my ears like violence
Are you gonna knock are you gonna come in and navigate this sanctuary of sin
Within which I suffer myself and others quietly and wallow in all hate
End it all turn out the lights but you know that you cannot kill what you did not create
Mystery me with a dumb vision making promises he doesn’t keep
A vague understanding that I’ll never show up making promises I doesn’t keep
Keep keep keep keep keep keep making promises he doesn’t keep
…………. Making promises he doesn’t keep
It’s the depression
If I believe I’m wrong that makes me right most of the time as standard
It all falls apart into pieces in flame if I tried my best and planned hard
What an introspect, go and blame the architect, if the building falls apart
Who can I take to court for the failings and weaknesses of the human heart
You blame the one who made the car if the engine doesn’t start
You blame the one who led you to make mistakes based on the wisdom they impart
You blame the one who wrote the books when reading doesn’t make you smart
Who can I take to court for the failings and weaknesses of the human heart
It’s the depression
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5. |
Plateau
02:41
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6. |
Just Like That (Beat)
03:08
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7. |
Queen In Green (Beat)
03:26
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8. |
Depression (Beat)
07:15
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